Angst, Disillusionment, and Gardening!

I lost my hat at the club (yes, Maddie, one less for you to attempt to throw away...). I am experiencing great, existential despair and loss of identity. I am not sure I will recover. 

The Organic Gardening Community!!! I went to the local community garden and fell in love. I want to spend forever there. Tim the Gardener (I already found your replacement Dad!) was one of the most beautiful souls I've ever met. The sixty year-old man won me over with his love and belief in compost. Everyone there is wonderful, they were all having tea together when I had to leave to go to class. I can't wait to go back on Saturday to start weeding/composting/cultivating happiness...

I also discovered a beautiful graveyard just up the hill from my house. It is overgrown and lovely. I sat on a gravestone for a long time writing a letter and feeling the sun turn that golden color in the late afternoon...the hills were picturesque - green with quaint English houses...I laid down on the grass and I've never seen the sky so blue and void! I came back overwhelmed and so in love with God. I just wanted to lay there forever (I know I am being ridiculous! but I can't help it - nature evokes such joy in me...ha ha! but, oh how I relate to those Romantic poets...). Oh, and I finished a poem! Which is exciting.

I love you all so much! I hope I am not writing too much or too often, but soon I will be a slave to my studies....ha ha. Good night!